There are so many people out there who only post perfect (edited or not) pictures of themselves. As someone who has had acne for more than 20 years (with a lot of scars to prove it !), I know how disheartening those perfect faces are. It’s bad enough you are unhappy about your acne but to compare it other people is just torture. I’ve been doing that since I was a teenager and I am still doing it. Thanks to all the scars left by cystic acne I always felt I was not pretty enough and feel rely self conscious when talking to people up close (I always think is she/he looking at me or my scars/acne ?).
If you read my ‘About me’ page you would know I’ve had a tumor in my pituitary gland sometime ago and it messed up all my hormones. Though the tumor is gone now the hormonal imbalances remain. On top of that I have PCOS (Poly cystic ovarian syndrome), which causes major acne in some people. Whatever the cause is I tend to breakout in cystic acne which takes a long time to heal. And then I am left with a scar/mark that takes ages to fade (I very scar easily). The top picture was taken 1 year ago when I was going through a really bad skin period. Nothing seem to work so I started using Proactive extra strength regimen (7.5%) with The Body Shop Tea Tree range and after about 2 months most of my acne healed. Read more on that here. My very oily skin seems to hold up to Proactive well. I sort of have a love hate relationship with Proactive. Though it works but it can leave my skin quite dry at times and it does nothing to fade my scars/marks. And if I go a couple of months without using I start breaking out again !
The above photos were taken last week, in full sunlight without any makeup on. You can see how much my acne has healed. Though some marks and deep scars (from a long time ago) still remain. Those deep scars don’t seem to heal and I cannot afford to go for any dermatological treatments like peels or laser treatments for them. No brand/amount of foundation (Cover-fx which is supposed cover any scar is not available in Dubai) can seem to cover them, so I have to live with them (recommendations are most welcome). This has made me more a skincare person than makeup (what’s the point of trying to cover up something that won’t be covered ?).
Thankfully my wonderful husband always gives me confidence and makes me feel like a princess. No matter how bad my acne was he always makes it a point to tell me how beautiful I am (I’ve been with him as long as I’ve had acne;15 years).
So to all of you fellow acne suffers out there, stick with your skincare routine for a couple of months and you are bound to see some results. See a doctor if it’s not responding to the usual products or if you are getting deep cystic acne. I will post the details of my updated summer skincare regime soon. Thanks a lot for reading and please do comment if you have any questions. And I would love to know what products/makeup you use for covering acne scars and marks .